I think there's something wrong with my subconscious?

If you read my other question about "does this mean im in love?' you'll understand. Anyways, i just realized im in love with my boyfriend and it feels great. But my overactive mind is driving me crazy. Once before i doubted the love i had for my boyfriend. (Mind you, i've always been boy crazy) ive had numerous boyfriends and said "ily" to all of them but deep down inside, i knew ididnt love them. When i got with my current boyfriend eddie, i felt something i've never felt before. I felt such a deep connection, and instantly knew i was in love. He lied about something big in december, and it being january when i started to question whether i loved him or not scared me. At first, i didnt understand. I soon figured out that it was because he had lied to me, & i tend to over yze everything. But wen i had those thoughts, a lot went through my mind. I said to myself, "why are you thinking this way? You KNOW you love him! Only an idiot wouldnt. You know you're definatly not gay!" and i'm not gay. I cant stand females. I experienced once or twice with girls when i was small, but i believe everyone experiments with friends. I never thought ually about my friends afterwards either. Ive never even had this thought in my mind until now. Its normal for girls to think other girls are pretty without being considered . I think a lot of girls are pretty, however this one girl i know is gay, but i still think shes pretty. Does that make me gay? So as i tried to avoid the thought, she came into my clroom that day to deliver a paper to someone and my heart sunk. It sunk because i was trying to 4get. Idk why im thinkig all this but its scaring me. Im scared because IM IN LOVE WiTH A MAN but ever since i brought that stupid question into my head, it remains. Last night i had a dream i had with a girl (or so i think) i dont recall who it was. But lets just say i had a dream i had last night, & i liked it. I woke up this morning crying, hoping it wasnt a girl.